Anxiety (n.) - A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties.
Anxiety is the result of threats that are perceived to be uncontrollable or unavoidable. It can be described as a sense of uneasiness, nervousness, worry, fear, or dread of what's about to happen or what might happen. While fear is the emotion we feel in the presence of threat, anxiety is a sense of anticipated danger, or trouble. And this... is what I feel right now.
It is a natural human reaction to feel anxious from time to time so I am not complaining. After all, anxiety serves an important basic survival function: an alarm system that is activated whenever a person perceives danger or threat. But with the way things are going at the moment, I now find myself in a so anxious condition.
Anxious for not being able to outfight things. Anxious of tomorrow. Just plain anxious. After having experienced the state of being highly favored (that I really am thankful for), I feel useless not being able to return the favors back. I feel scared.
Anxiety is the result of threats that are perceived to be uncontrollable or unavoidable. It can be described as a sense of uneasiness, nervousness, worry, fear, or dread of what's about to happen or what might happen. While fear is the emotion we feel in the presence of threat, anxiety is a sense of anticipated danger, or trouble. And this... is what I feel right now.
It is a natural human reaction to feel anxious from time to time so I am not complaining. After all, anxiety serves an important basic survival function: an alarm system that is activated whenever a person perceives danger or threat. But with the way things are going at the moment, I now find myself in a so anxious condition.
Anxious for not being able to outfight things. Anxious of tomorrow. Just plain anxious. After having experienced the state of being highly favored (that I really am thankful for), I feel useless not being able to return the favors back. I feel scared.
Scared that this person would think I've just been taking things for granted. Scared that this person would one day get fed up of everything and just decide to get rid of me as no longer useful. I am scared of being deserted. I am scared of being ditched. I. AM. SCARED.
People keep reminding me that this isn't how things would end up, that I should stop "analyzing" things because it's what makes me feel anxious in the first place.
They keep on reminding me that they know me and I know myself, and that I can do better than this. And I believe them. I believe in myself. There's just these times when anxiety attacks unexpectedly. It's kind of hard to explain, really.
But after having said all these, let me redeem myself by saying that though I have flashes of existential anxiety from time to time, still, I try to stay patient and positive. I know it takes time to feel better, and courage to face fears. I may never be great, but I can certainly improve a lot and be pretty good.
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PS. YUI didn't help.
Neither did this. Haha, kidding.
Life Turns
Around
Ideas and
notions, tears and emotions
Thought processes in constant motion
A wheel of fortune around it goes
Sometimes high and sometimes low
Smiles and laughter, joy and happiness
Magic potion I don’t possess
Bitterness can wear a soul to ground
Invisible chains can keep you bound
Will to live you cherish life
Walk away from trouble and strife
Don’t feel jaded when you’ve been let down
Wear your smile not a complex frown
Desires do burn I will confess
It's not a case of hopelessness
Feel assurance within your heart
Remember this is but the start
What’s done to you, will in time rebound
If you’re feeling lost remember; life turns around!
Thought processes in constant motion
A wheel of fortune around it goes
Sometimes high and sometimes low
Smiles and laughter, joy and happiness
Magic potion I don’t possess
Bitterness can wear a soul to ground
Invisible chains can keep you bound
Will to live you cherish life
Walk away from trouble and strife
Don’t feel jaded when you’ve been let down
Wear your smile not a complex frown
Desires do burn I will confess
It's not a case of hopelessness
Feel assurance within your heart
Remember this is but the start
What’s done to you, will in time rebound
If you’re feeling lost remember; life turns around!
© Elga
~Indigo
Neither did this. Haha, kidding.
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